Okay, so we kissed, flirted, kissed some more..and did some more flirting. Still totally innocent, not knowing what the other one wanted, not talking about what was happening...I loved it..
Then suddenly..BOOM..."I think we should only be friends"
Okay. Cool. What could I say? "No,it's not okay. I don't want to be friends. I want more. I want you!"
Yes, I said all this. But silently. But he knew. Of course he knew.
It was out in the open. Nothing was happening between us.
Then his best mate came along.
Me. Wounded. Hurt
His best mate. Interested. Cute.
I thought "Why not? He's a great guy, I'll give it a shot"
Big mistake.
He got jealous. Very jealous. And wanted me back.
I liked it. I liked it a lot.
So there we were. The two guys and me. He, the one I couldn't have. And the other, the one I didn't know if I wanted. Now they both suddenly wanted me.
Arguments, fighting etc. It all happened. For some time they didn't even speak to each other. Then they decided to have a chat. They came back to me saying that it would be best for all if we all were just mates.
Okay. Cool.
It didn't last. Of course it didn't last. They fought for my attention. And the jealousy! They were constantly jealous and betraying the other one's trust. If one turned away, the other one would flirt, hug me and try to kiss me.
I was flattered, but being sensible, I did not want to come between them. I didn't want them to fall out, then later have a chat and they'd both decide that it was my fault&ditch me. I'd lose both. No way.
So I tried my best to treat them equally, although he was there first. He was the one that I really wanted.
It went on like this for months. People around us were fed up. I totally understand as they seem to fall out everytime they were drunk. And I'd cry, upset cos I felt it was all my fault..
Then we were alone. Him and I. The other one had gone away on holiday for 4 weeks.
"We" were back on. We betrayed his best friend's trust.
It felt bad, but so good! I was happy..for a while..
Me and him. Me and him...
